On the Right to Create

“Cauldron of Creation”

Reflecting if we are here to be making love to the earth all the time. If we are here to create and bring forth our ideas into matter.

And I think about myself and others. How quickly we stop ourselves from imagining and creating because we think and tell ourselves that we are not good enough. We ask: who are we? Who are we to do such things as to imagine and try and express? Who are we to not be amazing all the time?

Part of my purpose and sharing my doodles and my words is to model and help normalize mediocre expressions. Some things I make are remarkable. But a lot more or not. And that is beautiful!

That is part of the purpose ! I suppose judging anything to be good or bad, beautiful ugly mediocre etc. etc. etc. is in truth meaningless. It might be better to say I create things I don’t like. And I’m OK with that. But I still catch myself to think who am I to even make this post?

“And I got lost in the forest of deception.”

And that is why I want to teach art classes to people. Why I want to hold space for people to create. This is our right and part of who we are as humans. And there are so many strangulations that try to stop us that are built into our culture, and we absorb into so it becomes our negative self-talk and for what reason? How dangerous is it to be mediocre? How dangerous is it to make mediocre art? Mediocre words?

We are so terrified of being judged. And in fact we may be judged by many. We have been trained to judge ourselves and others. We have been trained to hurt others to acquiesce and to not imagine but to be conforming in that gray gray world of that children’s book .with the various Miss Which’s.

But all the imagination is your treasure. The imagination in your heart is your treasure to explore. And it isn’t necessarily art or colors that you use. But the way you think, the words you choose, the decisions you make on what you like and do not like. It can be simply how you engage in the world. Yes. All the imagination is yours and yours to discover. 

What If

What If

This is a more philosophical post but gets at something I try to do with jillyhop and my art — create a break from the fear and darkness facebook and the media are trying to put into us.Why I make and share art:

What if the most valuable asset from humanity is our imagination? What if Jesus came to tell us we are all Gods, that we create all the time? What if our imagination is literally a factory that collectively creates the world we live in?

What if there is a non-incarnate parasitic force (sentient/conscious or not) who wants to keep humanity disempowered in a state of conflict and fear but is completely powerless except to try to infiltrate the minds of humans. Where it tries to influence humans’ imagination, attempting to sow seeds of fear and in turn stirring the human heart to state of fear and anger and distrust. And humanity, unaware of its tremendous power, mindlessly allows their minds to drink in lies and fear, which in turn affects what is imagined and hence what we create.

This isn’t about rainbows and la la goodness. It’s about taking responsibility for what we create and what we expose our minds to, being present with what is including the suffering in our selves and others. Take away anything that isn’t true. And that’s what we need to be left with so we can create a world we can be proud of. We are strong enough to do this. We are powerful.


Allowing Love to Grow: Art, Creativity, Inspiration, What can be stolen?

I was excited just now to see a regular doodler on twitter made a doodle inspired by one of mine, heart flowers growing in the ground. she acknowledged me in a tweet which I appreciated, and I was flattered, excited I contributed to someone else’s creative fire. I answered: Let the love grow! And that is what this is about to me. Dream – Love – Grow!

And what if by collaborating and sharing we can go much further than if we were alone?

The lines between self:other have been the theme this week from a number of incidents….

Late last year I had a very clear vision — the words Dream Love Grow cut out with icons below the text — bright watercolors peeking through like below but much better. 🙂 And then I googled the words to see what else was out there, and lo’! someone else with a similar vision to me had those words as their business! It was really remarkable.

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So I have really mixed feelings about things like copyright… on the one hand, we all belong to the art we create, we inspire each other, and in fact I would wager we are all following some of the same muses in the ethers — none of it owned by any of us. Ideas crave to be born. If I do not run with an idea, it will be given to another person very much the same. I remember discovering this in the mid-80s when I bleached my jeans before anyone else. I thought I discovered it and it was “my” idea! This has happened to me over and over, and I can feel I reach up metaphorically into the sky and find ideas wanting to be born and I help them (or I don’t). Either way the ideas will get born.

Symbols and messages are much like waiting for any of us to be the messenger, to be Mercury. that none of us really create anything. I worry at times that I will steal ideas unwittingly. I have avoided followinglove-flowers-many and finding artists online for this very reason. And then I set the worry aside wanting to be inspired by others, appreciative, and part of a larger collaboration on this planet. None of us creates in isolation.

On the other hand, having one’s work recognized and part of legacy must be very rewarding and “right”. Finding our voice, working very hard, and then having it stolen for money and profit and greed by another is wrong. And for most experiencing it must be very painful. and yet, and yet, if the message is of value, the imagery stirring the heart, is it not better to be shared more greatly?

A lovely class I am taking by Alena she mentioned the same thing. That as artists we shouldn’t be afraid to copy other people’s works to be inspired.

I saw an artist doodle flowers like I have this week, and I felt pained. I sat with that and continue to wondering why. I felt ignored and left behind for something that was mine… but I could not be sure. And in fact, I think she painted them on her own accord! What do I bring with me to the table? What’s true?

There is that definition of art vs craft — art cannot be easily reproduced. Maybe my work is more like a craft I thought….

Then just yesterday, this artist talked about how awful it is have ideas stolen! And I laughed to myself realizing we are all on similar paths, she isn’t stealing, the “other” but walking along expressing her he(art). And I wonder what it takes to create a truly collaborative walk that the internet has made available to us, open research where competition is traded in for collective development.

I would say this: we all have a furnace for a heart which cannot be turned off unless we let it. The ideas will keep coming and cannot be stolen.


All art copyright me despite my post. 🙂 And these are part of the heart series in the past two weeks. Prolific simple heart.

We must remember who we are and who we want to be.

Thinking how we all really need to be creating and imagining right now. Different ways of being. Different solutions to the problems we face.

The key about creation we often forget is we start at the beginning – the beginning is not the final piece, the beginning is an empty moon waiting to be filled — answers that work and answers that fail, the important thing is to take action and discover. That’s part of what the beginning is.

I share my art in part to show my process to those who see my posts. It’s a process that belongs to all of us – not just a talented few.

I firmly believe that we all have the most tremendous gifts inside us, for many of us those gifts are not yet unlocked but remain stuck inside.

It can be very hard sometimes to create. It can be very intimidating. It can be a portal into self-hate and self-loathing, the dream killers within (thank you Meg!).

I committed to myself and my dreams at the start of this year, and part of those dreams include illustration. And part of that commitment is to not look away. To not stop. To know sometimes it will be really uncomfortable. Sometimes it has been terrifying however irrational it may seem.

But that should not stop us. We must move through the fear.

I have observed how so many of us have built-in a ring of distortion when looking at ourselves. It’s the anorexia complex but much broader – the voice within that says we do is ugly, what we do is ugly, that we have to be Right to have value. And it’s a total lie!!!

This distortion ring is put into us by our culture. It’s put into us by a fear machine that wants us to doubt ourselves, a fear machine that wants us to be far too busy thinking we are inept and failing so we don’t look at it straight in the face and say: NO MORE. NO MORE DREAM KILLING. NO MORE SELF-DOUBT. NO MORE GIVING UP OUR POWERS TO INVISIBLE FORCES. NO MORE. We all have inalienable rights to create and discover. Inalienable right to take up space. Inalienable right to share and connect. We are all sacred.